today is the 15th january of 2008, posted tis at 7.35pm.
began blogging immediately wen ii reach home aft work.
well, recently..
many tings happened nd tings are changing..
hm, many frends said tat im lyk a walking corpse..
ii felt lyk one too, yup.
sorry haopengyous, for letting uu all worry soo much for me?
hah, yep.
dey're right..
ii've indeed changed into someone tat ii never dream tat ii will be..
nd its very saddening?
ii really donno wat to say..
cos everytime someting happen, ii wun noe the reason..
nd ii will be left dere alone to cry nd be sad..
ask him why he jus wun tell me..
cos he will not reply me nd will reject or ignore or even off his fond as not to ans my call..
ii told him tat ii really love him alot nd ii REALLY do.
but he oso wun reply..
nd jus a few days ago..
he said tat he don love me as much as before le..
ii really find him a true asshole..
cos jus a few days ago before he said tat he don love me as much..
he said tat he wun leave me nd tell me why so long le still scared will break?
so, if uu are looking at tis post now, which ii tink uu wun..
uu noe why ii ask uu those qns le muh?
cos im really really scared.
ii cant afford to lose uu..
but now, ii noe its meaningless le rite.
cos ii jus feel tat..
im aready replaced by someone in ur heart..
although ii love uu alot..
but ii cant help it to hate uu now..
why mus uu do all those tings to me nd tell me all those tings wen uu don love me aready?
uu hurt me so so much, do uu noe?
ha, ii don tink uu noe ba..
or uu wun even care if im hurt or not..
ii jus wann to tell uu tat..
believe it or not..
as a woman, we have a special gift from god nd tat's instinct.
as for me, my sixth sense is abit stronger den others..
nd ii can tell uu tat..
ur love for me now are soon to be gone totally..
because dere's another person tat uu care more bout me now..
so why bear longer pains?
uu might be tinking tat im jus jealous or wat..
but don tell me tat, aft 5mths of being together, uu dono tat im a gurl who doesnt lyk my bf to be easily jealous?
so why would ii be?
uu've really changed alot after uu know her.
did she change uu or uu changed for her?
actually ii don care now.. haha.
well, if uu wanna noe how uu've changed.
its not towards ur frends or changed in personality..
but its the attitude towards me..
aft knowing her, uu gave me cold shoulders every now nd den and treat it lyk nth happen..
but if fact, it did.
not to uu, but to me.
ii really really broke my heart
ii really DISLIKE uu alot, gurl(:
to tell uu the truth..
ii even dislike uu so much tat ii would feel lyk vomitting wen ii tot of uu nd even seeing ur pic.
not because uu manage to take away his heart, but the fact tat ur're a murderer.
a murderer tat killed my dear wei zhen..
the guy tat love nd cared for me so much
the guy tat ii've love nd cared for him so much
the guy tat ii've gave my first kiss too (as in uu noe tat kiss luh - -)
the guy tat held my hand in so many many ways
the guy tat make us seem lyk a crazy couple
the guy tat ever being approve by my relatives nd parents
the guy tat many envied
the guy tat really melts my heart
the guy tat ii will cry for even if a tiny ting happen between us
the guy tat took my everyting
the guy tat will appear suddenly nd say, XXXg of double choc chip nd keep smiling at me while ii pack his order
the guy tat will always complain nd act angry wen ii did not give him discount
the guy who will always walk ard in front of famous amos while waiting for me to finish work
the guy who ii would miss right aft he had gone home aft sending me back
the guy tat would make me the happiest woman on earth wen he said woaini to me the
guy tat ..............
ii really miss him uu noe..
nd thanks to uu tat he's gone now.
hah. well, ii guess its all a dream ba.
a nightmare..
but now im awake from tis scary scary dream.
hm, aft seeing tis..
uu shuld noe wat am ii telling uu le ba..
yupp, lets make it a silence one ba.
hm..
greatest wishes frm me to uu nd her?
she might be the right person for uu ba..
lyk wat uu said on sunday aft ii told uu the results of the quiz..
yup, uu had yet met the right person..
so tats why uu did not commit into our r/s..
hah, aft saying tis..
ii suddenly tot of someting..
someting tat made me cried lyk dere's no tomorrow now..
someting tiny but sweet tat made my day aft uu said tat..
rmb tat time wen ii suddenly felt really scared of our r/s?
uu assured me by saying wat ii had said to uu last time..
and tat is :
uu noe wat? u're jus the right gurl for me...
well, ii hope tat aft uu see tis..
dere's still time to salvage tis broken r/s?
dere's still time to heal tis broken broken heart?
but ii noe..
its all jus my wishful tinking ba..
oh well...
dere's such a saying..
wats urs, it will always be urs.
but wats not urs, it will never be urs..so, if we really can get back together happily or jus finish liddat..
its all the work of god ba(:
oh well...
7:37 PM
