Hello. I'm just a retarded girl who loves spongebob as much as her bf yeah.
Anyway, I'm a Budhha's child fyi and I love music as much as I love my friends.
So, if you dislike me in any way,
click here please?
Ya, thank you and enjoy your stay here.
And she rants, blah blah blah.
well, haha.
alot of things happen recently ya?
haha, anyway.
went out with sueying and yy yst!
IT WAS AWESOME MANN!! :DD
lazy to update info bout it, so..
haha, go to sueying's blog to read up about the day!
and if uu not sure why she say its not worth to tok about someting about me, bcos..
ii was late for 2hrs!
LOLL! :D
CHEERS!
I WANT MORE OUTINGS!! :DD
and this is the picture of the day!
next, yy look like a REAL MAFIA in this picture lor!!
next up, one of HARD GAY's POSE!!
and finally, a GAY PICTURE to wrap up the awesome day! :D
13days to NBC.
5:15 PM
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I've thought over le.and ii decided to excel in both STUDIES and BAND.YEH BABY, IM GONNA DO IT! :DDI want to be a SUPERWOMAN!
12:20 AM
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oh ya, forgoe to intro this to everyone.
OBOG LOGO, WOOOO! :DD
haha, smile if you see us on the streets!
LOLL! xDD
oh ya, and remember us k!
cos we'll make it BIG! :D
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YAY!!finally pictures from POP 2008!haha, OBOG!! xD
` OBOG TRUMPET SECTION! [look at anchun -.-]
` trying to stand in position
` still trying to
` mrlim could not stand le so he guided us on how to position ourselves xP
` still in the process..
` and finally, presenting to you. OBOG WIND SYMPHONY!!
all the best for the upcoming NBC peeps!
JIAYOU OBOG!! :D
4papers down, 2more to go.
18days to NBC.
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I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Jin.I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before.
To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days…
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…Then one day…Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark…he still didn’t call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted…
“Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me...
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said.
Then he ran off.
My legs felt numb…
and I collapsed to the ground.
He didn’t want to say it easily…
How could he….
I felt that…
Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn’t call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That’s how those dolls piled up in my room…
everyday.
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that…
I saw him on a street…
with another girl…
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…
as he touched the doll…
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell…
Why did he gave these to me…
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang.
It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that…
it’s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Ju, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me.
But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then…
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!” HONK~!! “Boom!”
That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me.
That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him…
And after spending two months like a crazy person…
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days…
when we were in love…
“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked.
“I….lo..ve…you??”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop.
I…love you…
Why didn’t I realize that….
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much…
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much…
“Ju…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days.
Do you know what 486 is?
I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll,
I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Ju… I love you…”
The tears came flowing out of me.
Why? Why?
I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…
For that…
and for that reason…
to me…
it became courage…
to live a beautiful life...OMG luh.this story is damn damn touching, omg.some people can be just so lucky to meet the correct person.but why mus it end so fast?cant it last forever?and for some, why did they gotten demselves such a wonderful partner but don cherish them?ii dono why ii wrote this.mayb im thinking bout something while writing this?hah, anyway.just wanna remind couples in the world to cherish your loved ones.don ever get tired of them aft sometime alright, becos the reason you two are tgt is very simple.both of you are just meant to be :]goodluck! :D2 papers down, 4 more to go.20days to NBC.
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POP.its finally over!haha, well.HS you all can really do better alright!so jiayou for the comp!practice hard! :DOBOG JIAYOU TOO!wee! :DD
3:06 PM
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before ii start blog proper, lets call for a celebration!haha, cos this is my 100th POST!WOOO, congrats alrighto! :DLOL.alrighty, yesterday.MUS SESSION with chelsy.punggol cc study room was EXCEPTIONALLY weird.because, THERE IS NO OTHER PPL DEN US!haha, cos usually alot people ar!!hm, mug session was kinda bad yst cos.....WE STARTED PLAYING WITH MY WEBCAM, LOL.take pictures here and there and OMGOSH!it was home time le!so in the end, ii studied chem during midnight, LOL!okay, so today.yaya, went to sch early for band prac.was kinda good? hah.yeh, sort of :]and ii think it will cont to be great ba!haha. and then, it was CHEM MOCK TEST.GOSH, ii din noe how to do alot.cos not prepared, haha.its like ii noe, but all forgot?LOLL!!anyway, got back my chem bonding test.OMGOMGOMGOSH!!ii got B!WOOO, finally sia.fianlly got OUT of the U terror! :DDDso aft sch, ii went dating with someone that is so important!!CHELSY! haha xDwent to RAFFLES CITY!!we really shop sia! OMGOSH.since like, when was the LAST TIME we went shopping sia..haha, saw alot tings and wanna buy.in the end, we both bought animal's slippers!haha, and chels went sign up for levi's membership.damn luh she, freaking rich -.-oh ya, she FORCE me to exchange one of my slippers.and the colour combi now is like, ERMS.LOLL.gonna change with her on next tue.NEXT TUE!LOOKING FORWARD!!outing with chelsy, wilson and jingren!and cum class chalet! :DDDLabels; my bangs is B-A-C-K!!8days to MYE.28days to NBC.
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well, jackson just left my house.haha, he forget to take his watch home yst, LOL.forgetful sia, and ii tot im the one who's always liddat!HAHA :Danyway, gonna go MUG SESSION with chelsy le, hahaha.tmr got chem test, hope ii can study everyting today lo.yeh, this few days.ii mean this holiday?haha, alot of band stuffs :Dhad been practicing my instrument quite frequently nowadays.wonder if ii got improved not?after so many years of playing, ii finally have the thinking of wanting to learn to be a good player.SHEESH, but its okay.im still young, LOL xDhaha, POP is coming and so is my MYE.GOSH, haha.oh ya, im in charge of the concert.hm, lets hope ii don make any error luh!haha :Dthis sat got meeting and no OBOG prac, aw mann.competitions' coming too, haha.JIAYOU OBOG!Labels: Really like what Im doing alost everyday now, hah. BAND BAND & BAND! :D10days to MYE.30days to NBC.
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hello!im here to blog again.haha, have been missing in action for very long le hor.cos no time, no time! xPoh well, gonna blog what ii wanna blog today tomorrow :Dor someother day :Xoh ya.JAC is my sister now, hahaha.we're both MJ LOVERS! :D[being forced luh!]and JAC ar!don think so negative k, haha.i'll always be here, ii promised! :Drmb, budget airs to TAIWAN! xDLOVEEEEES'!!Labels: My life now is full of band stuffs and I LOVE IT!11days to MYE.31days to NBC.
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